Big Love

Not because you want to say something

This was advice I received in my youth. It stuck with me through the years. Now, writing close to 100 posts, I’m revisiting it.

What do I have to say?

You can do hard things.

You get to write your narrative.

Life is not over.

Grieve, cry, let it out, feel.

Just because you allowed something in the past, you have a right to change your mind.

It is darkest before the dawn.

I started this blog as a challenge to try something new, to have a creative outlet, and to share my lived and learned experiences.

Not every post is any good. But every post is my work. I have not used A.I. as I prefer my my-ness. I had a friend assist me with editing at first. The thing I am most proud of are the one-liners that say it all.

I am most surprised by people following me and reading my work. This brought me moments of pep and smiles 🙂

Reading over all of my posts, I see how I have made progress, grown, and how I became more hopeful about what is next, including future love.

There were some things I purposefully sidestepped. Writing about my children, about the X, and some of the more intimate and vulnerable topics were skipped mostly. Some for privacy, some to avoid the painful reliving of things. Some to not be exploitive. Some because I just didn’t want to.

What I did try to do was be real, stay in my lane, but also aim to learn through reflection. Acknowledging that others who go through divorce, separation, breakups, all this will look and feel different for each person who experiences it.

There is no panacea.

Panacea – universal balm

What is there – stories, laughs, and sources for growth. Music, experts, quotes, poems, jokes, photography. These are all tools.

I am a different person today from the person who started this blog and wondered if she could do it.

Life is more life-y for me these days. I have more tools, more time under my belt working with my therapist, and more bandwidth.

I keep it juicy, juicy.

Juicy by Doja Cat

So, 100 posts. Three years. Word Press, who knew you would be an important step on my journey. With gratitude and humility.