Big Love

My life changed one year ago.

My long term partner and I separated. This rip in the fabric of my life created many foreseeable changes and many invisible ones too. I knew it would be hard. Though I never came even remotely close to imagining how hard it would actually be.

For one thing, my identity changed. My status changed. My dream for myself and the future I dreamed, changed too.

Plus, this was uncharted territory and I was unsure of the path forward. Like going off to college, or having my first child. Having freeze as my natural tendency in the fight, flight or freeze response was both helpful and not in this case. I was in survival mode.

But here I am. Still breathing. Still alive. Still going forward.